a long awaited blog post...

Well maybe not but here it is. LOL We are moved in. Almost everything is unacked. I still have some clothes on our bed to put away and a bunch to clean but that is about it right now. I'm enjoying living here imensely. It's been beneficial so far. I think we've eaten at each others houses most days this week LOL.
Today is the first day i've been able to relax for a change. We've been juggling our time between moving, my new job and the hospital where his grandfather is. Patrick has been really stressed. He's been at odds with most his family on the care that his grandfather should be getting right now. Unfortunately it makes him look bad and like he's giving up. Patrick would rather his grandfather (who's been a dad to him) come home and live the rest of his days where he would want to be. However, the rest of the family wants to give Chemo a try. Chemo at this point won't make the cancer go away and won't save him. The best it could do is possibly ease the pain and give him a few months. However, Fred is not a healthy person. SO his chances of Chemo helping him are very slim. Most likely it will only make him sicker and more miserable. The problem is that Patrick knows this and the rest of the family doens't. They are acting out of grief and he has a hard time understanding their reasoning. It's a stressful situation. Fred is at the Tiffin hospital today to go through a round of chemo and see how he takes to is and reacts. If he doesn't do well then he'll come home to hospice care and family till he leaves this world.
You know I've always known that this time would come and that I needed to be prepared for it. I knew how hard it woud be for my husband and I needed to be able to be there for him and to help him through it. I just never prepared myself for my own grief. I love my own grandparents but can't say I was ever really close to them. Fred however liked and accepted me from the start. Calling me little red short for Little Redneck due to the fact that I was catholic. We've spent many a day sitting in their back yard at the farm just chatting and I will miss that very much. They are truly my grandparents as well and I'm dealing with my own sadness as well as Patrick's. I know it will pass. I hope for the best cenerio in that Fred passes away with as little pain as possible.

we've got a wiggler

YAY, LOL I had my first (and last) appointment with my perinatologist this morning. He was a really nice guy and i'm kind of sad that I won't be able to stick with him. First they took my weight which was wayyyyy to high LOL but then I had jeans on so that accounts for something right?

I got to have an ultra sound. it was cool. Probably the best one I've ever had in clarity. They had a tv screen in front of me so I could watch and not have to share the monitor on the machine. Baby is right on track for 11 weeks so my due date is still and will stay Christmas Day. This little booger was moving all over the place LOL. It was really cool. I wish Patrick could have been there. I do however have tons of pictures which is cool. The HB was 167 and that is good.

I do however have a headache i've been dealing with for 2 days. I had these with Rhayan so i'm hoping they don't stick around as long as hers did.

Sisterly love???

I must say that I get along with my sisters very well. We usually don't have too many issues with each other and when we do we tend to get over them fairly quickly. This, however, is a complete 360 from when we were younger LOL. I'm sure if you asked me when I was 13 if I liked my sisters I probably would have rolled my eyes.

So it would come to a complete shock to my 13 year old self that I'm actually very excited that we may have a chance at living only 4 houses down from my sister Becky. We used to fight all the time yet also seemed to get along in the weirdest way.

Patrick I and the kids are moving back to Fremont. To a town that we swore we would never return too. LOL I should have known better than to make that promise. Well I was at my moms house on Sunday when my sister Becky called me to tell me that the house down the street was now for rent. I jumped and called the phone number listed. All is looking good and we will meet them at the house on Monday the 9th to see it and hopefully get the ok to rent it. It's a pretty good rent for a large house. I'm also very sure that my husband and Becky's husband will now get into all sorts of trouble once he gets back from Irag in January. Now the question is, will Becky and I be able to handle that LOL.