Ironic and a little sad

I find it a little ironic and a little sad that the last post I made 3 years ago in 2008, parallels our life now. In that post it's obvious that we just moved. We moved to a house a few houses down from my sister Becky and the house I grew up in in Fremont. As like now, we just recently moved into a new house again. This time not so close to "home" but like then we were dealing with the move and the challenges that creates.

In my last post I also mention about me getting used to my new job. I am not getting used to a new job at this moment but Patrick is. At the time he was unemployed and at this time I am unemployed by choice. Luckily though, Patrick's current job seems to be a good one that he really likes. My job at that time turned out to be the worst job I ever had and the only good thing that came of it was that I made some new friends.

It was also at a time when Patrick's grandfather was in the hospital. I don't think we knew at the time that he had lung cancer but we knew he was dying. Unfortunately this too parallels what is going on now. Patrick's grandmother has recently been diagnosed with lymphoma and leukemia. She is currently at a nurning home due to being to week to get up and even eat most times. She's still there mentally but seems to have lost the will to live. I personally feel she lost that 3 years ago when Grandpa Fred died. She certainly was never the same. For that matter, neither was Patrick. I feel guilty that we have not visited her very often since Fred died. I can say we were busy and that would be true to a point. Unfortunately the major reason is a little more complicated than that and I'm sure some people wouldn't get it.

We have a rough couple of years since that last post. Lots of things have changed for us. Some have been for the better and others have not. I also think we are at a turning point in our lives as corny as that sounds :) . I think in just the past few months we've done a lot of growing up, at least I like to think we have. I'm very thankful that my children are flexible and are able to deal with change well. Hopefully we are on the right track to finally get to where and who we want to be.

new photo "curved".

ok here is another photo from my stash. I have not been able to get to my mom's house to grab my camera I left there.

Photohunt

This was suggested to me by my sister Kris. As many of you know, I'm getting back into my photography and even trying to start a small side business with it. This is something that has been going on for a few years through another blog. Here is is the link http://tnchick.com/pshunt

Each Saturday is a new theme. So here is my first photo for the theme CURVED. I'll have more this week but this is what I have in my stash right now. This photo was taken on the river front in Cincinnati Oh. We were up on the bridge walkway that takes you over to the Kentucky side of the river.

a long awaited blog post...

Well maybe not but here it is. LOL We are moved in. Almost everything is unacked. I still have some clothes on our bed to put away and a bunch to clean but that is about it right now. I'm enjoying living here imensely. It's been beneficial so far. I think we've eaten at each others houses most days this week LOL.
Today is the first day i've been able to relax for a change. We've been juggling our time between moving, my new job and the hospital where his grandfather is. Patrick has been really stressed. He's been at odds with most his family on the care that his grandfather should be getting right now. Unfortunately it makes him look bad and like he's giving up. Patrick would rather his grandfather (who's been a dad to him) come home and live the rest of his days where he would want to be. However, the rest of the family wants to give Chemo a try. Chemo at this point won't make the cancer go away and won't save him. The best it could do is possibly ease the pain and give him a few months. However, Fred is not a healthy person. SO his chances of Chemo helping him are very slim. Most likely it will only make him sicker and more miserable. The problem is that Patrick knows this and the rest of the family doens't. They are acting out of grief and he has a hard time understanding their reasoning. It's a stressful situation. Fred is at the Tiffin hospital today to go through a round of chemo and see how he takes to is and reacts. If he doesn't do well then he'll come home to hospice care and family till he leaves this world.
You know I've always known that this time would come and that I needed to be prepared for it. I knew how hard it woud be for my husband and I needed to be able to be there for him and to help him through it. I just never prepared myself for my own grief. I love my own grandparents but can't say I was ever really close to them. Fred however liked and accepted me from the start. Calling me little red short for Little Redneck due to the fact that I was catholic. We've spent many a day sitting in their back yard at the farm just chatting and I will miss that very much. They are truly my grandparents as well and I'm dealing with my own sadness as well as Patrick's. I know it will pass. I hope for the best cenerio in that Fred passes away with as little pain as possible.

we've got a wiggler

YAY, LOL I had my first (and last) appointment with my perinatologist this morning. He was a really nice guy and i'm kind of sad that I won't be able to stick with him. First they took my weight which was wayyyyy to high LOL but then I had jeans on so that accounts for something right?

I got to have an ultra sound. it was cool. Probably the best one I've ever had in clarity. They had a tv screen in front of me so I could watch and not have to share the monitor on the machine. Baby is right on track for 11 weeks so my due date is still and will stay Christmas Day. This little booger was moving all over the place LOL. It was really cool. I wish Patrick could have been there. I do however have tons of pictures which is cool. The HB was 167 and that is good.

I do however have a headache i've been dealing with for 2 days. I had these with Rhayan so i'm hoping they don't stick around as long as hers did.

Sisterly love???

I must say that I get along with my sisters very well. We usually don't have too many issues with each other and when we do we tend to get over them fairly quickly. This, however, is a complete 360 from when we were younger LOL. I'm sure if you asked me when I was 13 if I liked my sisters I probably would have rolled my eyes.

So it would come to a complete shock to my 13 year old self that I'm actually very excited that we may have a chance at living only 4 houses down from my sister Becky. We used to fight all the time yet also seemed to get along in the weirdest way.

Patrick I and the kids are moving back to Fremont. To a town that we swore we would never return too. LOL I should have known better than to make that promise. Well I was at my moms house on Sunday when my sister Becky called me to tell me that the house down the street was now for rent. I jumped and called the phone number listed. All is looking good and we will meet them at the house on Monday the 9th to see it and hopefully get the ok to rent it. It's a pretty good rent for a large house. I'm also very sure that my husband and Becky's husband will now get into all sorts of trouble once he gets back from Irag in January. Now the question is, will Becky and I be able to handle that LOL.

I really need a new job

Not that I don't like my current one. It's fine. It's not hard and pays well for the most part. But normally I don't have enough to do so I'm twiddling my thumbs. That's not the only reason why either. THe family and I are leaving. We are moving back to the town where we swore never to return. LOL It's amazing how your perceptions are skewed. The grass is always greener on the other side untill you get there. After realizing that we hated London Ohio and wanted to move back, something happened here that kicked that into overdrive.

While we were away the weekend of Mother's Day there was a shooting in our apartment building. We live in apartment F on the second floor. The shooting happened in Apartment D which is below and off to the side of us. This apartment was known to us as drug dealing. It's fairly obvious to anyone paying any attention. Well, the dumb asses who were there got into an argument over a card game and one shot the other. We came home that Sunday night though and didn't know that anything had happened. We did notice new neighbors across the hall from us in APT E. Patrick then noticed then doing a drug deal himself as he was getting the rest of the stuff out of the truck. So on monday I get home from work and Rose who lives below us asked to speak with me. She's a nice girl who has 3 boys that my kids play with. We are two totally different people but we get along rather well. She procedes to tell me about the shooting that weekend. At first the cops had mistaken the apartment as being hers. So I came upstairs and told Patrick. We decided then and there it was time to wash our hands of this. We got a hold of the management office and they are letting us out of our lease with no penalties. Yes we got that in writing as well

So now I'm job searching an unfortunately it's not going the best. I did apply for a job at Tiffin U but was told they had done some interviews already so we'll see if I even get called. We would like to leave by the end of June and there is a house in Fremont that looks promising if we could secure it and get jobs. Wsh us luck.